guywithmonsters | And The World Turns.. .gratefully, a bit less

The dizziness seems to be leaving me. I guess the doc was right about the allergy meds and the fluid behind me ears. I hope that's all it is and that the dizziness will be gone for good.

I hate being sick. I hate anything that makes me feel like I'm vulnerable or can't care for myself. I think it comes form living alone for a long time.

I had the flu so bad once that I was hallucinating. I lived alone and was terrified. It was probably one of the worst nights of my life.

Anyway, I'm at work today. I have some "decisions" to make about this new site and then have to get myself in gear about converting the other site into Primus.

On my desk is a small rough of the collage I'm working on at home. I was all about it but Mr bear thinks it will be too much black. I'm kind of twisted about it because i was going to hang it in our bedroom. If he doesn't like it I'll just put it aside or maybe give it away or just do something else over it. I was contemplating altering it to suit his suggestions more but I'm not feeling that with this piece. I brought the mock up to kind of think it over and I guess I've reached my decision.

So, I may have a 36" square collage up for grabs or I may hang it in the stairway to the studio. We'll see how I feel when it's done.

I usually have little affection for a piece once it's completed. Some people seem to always have that sense of their work being a part of them or their children. Once the last bit is done I'm usually attached to it for a few more days. then it just becomes another surface I could white wash and make something else on. Before I lived with Mr Bear, I would either through them out or just work on top of them, when a piece was done. I like the process more than the product. I'm glad of that because it takes a lot of the pressure off when you don't care much how something looks when it's done.

LOL Listen to me like I'm an art student!

OK, time to get back to work.