Lunch For Two, Bicycle for One, Shopping for Me

[guywithmonsters]

I had lunch with Betsy, my "rediscovered friend" from High School today. It was great to catch up and to talk with some one who remembers me in most of my phases/evolutions. It's reassuring and grounding in a way I find hard to express.

There's a core to each of us, I think, that we don't lose as we grow (if we're healthy). Sometimes I forget that and get lost in figuring out who I am right now. Life really isn't about the big outward changes, it's the small parts of yourself you discover over time that really makes you who you are. I'm still the same person who dyed his hair blue and bleached his jeans. There's just more sides of me showing now. I'm not different so much as there just being more of me to express.

We laughed about how times doesn't really change you and about how much better our lives are now then they were during 'the best years of our lives" (as people insist on calling High School). I am really grateful for reconnecting with her, especially now.

I was supposed ot meet another friend for dinner tonight but she canceled (car issues). We've been emailing about the weight loss/image thing (she lost a ton of weight two years ago). She's helped me get a better idea of what's happening and how long it takes to adjust to the changes. It was also great to have someone on the "other side of the tunnel" talk about being past where I am.

chastmastr and I have been discussing what a "Bear" is. I think I'm more bitter than I thought and sounding more bitter/jaded than I actually am. Don't hold it against me. ;-)

Tomorrow night is "Self Portrait Night", so expect to see some odd photographs here sometime after that (if it goes reasonably well). Thanks to macushla for pointing me in this direction and letting me know it's not extraordinary to feel this way. :-)

Tonight I'm going to get the air in my bike tires. I picked it up from storage on Sunday. I love my bike. Hopefully this week: I'm going to go clothes shopping and buy some clothes that fit and I feel good about. What good is being skinny is I don't fell fabulous?

Things I Am Grateful For
Meeting up with Betsy again
Cool LJ folk
Mr Bear's patience/Being able to really talk to him about things
Sourdough pretzels
Today's fab weather

Things I Want Today
A day off on the beach
A vacation
A day of shopping ;-)
Peonies (I miss mine form my old garden)
To clean up my bike
A massage

Comments

[chastmastr.livejournal.com]

Oh, I'd love to hold all sorts of things against you, but only if it would be OK with you and Mr. Bear both... ;)

Oh! You mean in the other sense! *blush* ;)

No offense taken at all!! :D

David
current mood: silly

[chastmastr.livejournal.com]

PS: More on bears -- yes, some of the guys I've met in some clubs have been exactly as shallow -- or worse! -- than you've mentioned. But I think of the Bear Archetype more than anything else, rather than on a more Aristotelian level, if you see what I mean.