BAM / It's The Weekend

While I really enjoy most of what I see at the Next Wave Festival and really love enough of it to be something I look forward to, trying to plan what days I'll be able to be in Brooklyn in December and if anyone will go with me is difficult.

I'm tempted to splurge a double subscription, but Mr Bear is ambivalent or vaguely weary of the shows in general and a definite "No" for Pina Bausch in particular. The thought of my Mom asking me questions through a performance or of some one fidgeting in their seat beside me makes me just not want to go. I get too caught up in whether the person/people with me are enjoying it to enjoy it myself.

So I'm going to order a single subscription and just loose myself in the performances. I'd rather be able to share the experiences with someone but I would much rather KNOW I'll enjoy it and not have to worry what my companion is thinking. Selfish? Probably but it's totally more practical.

The first week in the hospital is over and I'm grateful for the weekend and that I'm paired with some one else next week. Today showed me it's more about his attitude in general than towards me in particular. A small relief.

I'm waffling between making chicken and rice or a chicken casserole for dinner.

My Mom and I are meeting up to work out the business stuff tomorrow. I'm nervous and excited. It mostly hinges on what we can charge and the rent.

Ok, time to throw some laundry in and sit on the sofa for my thunder struck pups.

Things I Am Grateful For
Marshmallows (I'm obsessed with them today)
Cargo shorts
Funny stories at lunch
Mr Bear's concern that I get enough sleep
Having enough
Remembering to close my car windows BEFORE the rain started
Egg Noodles
Being able to "afford" theater tickets (nose bleed as they may be)
I wasn't involved in the work fiasco today
Netflix
Pulp novels - Like "Doc Savage: Brand of the Werewolf" (starting it now :-))

Things I Want Today
For someone to come clean my floors
A massage
To enlarge the size of my nipple rings