Here We Go....

Today features a sudden mandatory meeting whose invite started with "Change is good."

Looks like me may get a reorg after all.

I'm nervous and anxious. This could be one of those "Be careful what you wish for" lessons - I've wanted ot be laid off but the timing is all off - save that it'd be summer and I could hang on the beach at Sandy Hook for a week....ok, so it wouldn't be awful.

What scares me more is being moved to a different department. It's more likely than being laid off.

Oh well - nothing I can do about it but wait until 12 to see what's up.

I'm working from home today, which is weird. I'm working but being in the house in shorts just makes it seem "less responsible". It's weird because I want to go do other stuff and "stop wasting time on line". Like I'm just puttering at updating web pages and not really working.

Discipline has never been my strong point. At least not in a work setting. [eg]

Things I Am Grateful For
Having Enough
Mr Bear being so adorable when he's drunk
NOT having to be involved with the stripper at the party
Spring and the change in the weather
Knowing that, whatever happens, I will be OK
Meeting a lot of fun people this weekend
Trusting who I am enough to push back on aggressive people

Things I Want Today
Not to be assigned to a new manager
To get my act together and look for a new job
To get used to my new budget (with the car) and start saving money
Pudding

I'm Still Here - Damn it!

(Sandra Burnhardt had it right).

Well, no lay off and no new manager. A lot more work (actually a good thing) and a change in technology/focus I'm not sure about yet.

Of course, I have a ton of questions and no one has answers. I have a call later today for my boss and I discuss my questions. Some times, I feel like the Little Boy Who Cried Wolf, but it often morphs into my being the Kid With His Finger in the Dyke. I actually prefer the former - it's less drama being wrong.

Apparently, everyone we were out with last night called out sick today but Mr Bear and I. Of course I'm not hung over like the rest of the lot..... ;-)

We went to our friend's wedding shower - my first and I think most everyone there's first gay wedding shower. It was fun. The girls were a little wild with the stripper - it was funny to see a bunch of gay boys gape at how raunchy straight girls can be. After the shower, I drove a bunch of guys to NYC. We went to "Park", which rocked. Some of the group "didn't want to hang out with these kids" so we left before The Gay Pimp actually went on. I was disappointed but would totally go back there on another Sunday (provided I didn't have work the next day).

In retrospect, I probably should have dissuaded them from going out instead of helping them get there. They'd all already had to much and were over tired and out of their minds. There was more than enough crankiness at the end of the evening. It was still a fun day.

Tonight I'm going to hook up the new computer Mr Bear and I bought and WiFi the house. I am so stoked about having WiFi/access in the studio.

OK, back to work with me.

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I really am going to set up the new computer and WiFi. I am...just after this nap/movie/ice cream sandwich....

I'm tired from the week end and completely lacking motivation. I managed to eat dinner and carry the new computer upstairs since 5 PM. Don't ask me where all the time went - I have no idea.

Oh, fuck it. I'm gonna go watch "Waking Life"....