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Dec. 19th, 2003
Apparently, I posses some genetic flaw that makes me vulnerable to OPD, Other People's Drama. I don't mean gay drama, which I seem some how better equipped to avoid. I mean work and family drama.
The whole work drama thing is convoluted and complicated but it suffices to say that I am unable to rise above it or side step it. I get aggravated and angry. Then I get frustrated because everyone involved knows better and there's nothing I can do to make the nonsense stop.
I wish I was a stronger person in this way. I wish I didn't care about my work or the people I support. I wish the stupidity didn't get to me like this. I wish I had a different job in a different company. All or any of these things would be wonderful, but for the time being I'm just going to go to lunch and pretend it's not happening for an hour.
Yeah, I'm a a bitchy mess today. Maybe I'll buy myself a "here's a reward for working there" present.
On the home front the SAD/Darkness is starting to get to me. I'm moody and not sleeping well but always tired. I'm going to get some 5htp at lunch and maybe hit the tanning salon across the street. Lame as it sounds, it actually helps. I feel bad for Mr Bear and the other poor souls who have had to deal with me of late.
Well, time to stop feeling sorry for myself and do something about it.
But I did get a new icon or two today... :-)
The whole work drama thing is convoluted and complicated but it suffices to say that I am unable to rise above it or side step it. I get aggravated and angry. Then I get frustrated because everyone involved knows better and there's nothing I can do to make the nonsense stop.
I wish I was a stronger person in this way. I wish I didn't care about my work or the people I support. I wish the stupidity didn't get to me like this. I wish I had a different job in a different company. All or any of these things would be wonderful, but for the time being I'm just going to go to lunch and pretend it's not happening for an hour.
Yeah, I'm a a bitchy mess today. Maybe I'll buy myself a "here's a reward for working there" present.
On the home front the SAD/Darkness is starting to get to me. I'm moody and not sleeping well but always tired. I'm going to get some 5htp at lunch and maybe hit the tanning salon across the street. Lame as it sounds, it actually helps. I feel bad for Mr Bear and the other poor souls who have had to deal with me of late.
Well, time to stop feeling sorry for myself and do something about it.
But I did get a new icon or two today... :-)
I haven't head back from the S. Amboy Dept of Ed today. I'm going to call again on Monday and see if they're talking alternate route for the art teacher gig.
Tonight I'm going to the movies with my friend Adam. I haven't seen him in ages. We'l probably see Lord of the Rings. :-) Whatever we do it will be fun just to hang out.
Tomorrow night is Megan's Solstice dinner. Mr Bear is going shopping in the afternoon so I'm on my own. Studio time! Yeah! I'm so glad I'm done Christmas shopping (save a grab bag gift and one person left to get for both of which I'll get Monday at lunch). I'm actually enjoying the holiday more this year than last. I think a lot of it is because I'm not stressed about it. Shopping late sucks.
We're almost out of ham (finally!). I've been grazing through the rest of the party leftovers. We have mad bags of chips and stuff but at least they're not open.
I'm so going on a diet and starting to work out again after the holidays. I feel icky and uncomfortable. A little toning and weight loss usually helps that.
I better get going - I have a spot at the tanning place for 4. It's funny to me how many years I suffered through the winter depression and it's so easy to get a handle on.
Things I am Grateful For
Artificial sunlight
Crispy M&Ms
My Mp3 player
Our bathtub
Having enough
Things I Want Today
A chaise to read and eat grapes on while reclining
A good reading light
to watch the Muppet movies on TV or DVD tomorrow
Tonight I'm going to the movies with my friend Adam. I haven't seen him in ages. We'l probably see Lord of the Rings. :-) Whatever we do it will be fun just to hang out.
Tomorrow night is Megan's Solstice dinner. Mr Bear is going shopping in the afternoon so I'm on my own. Studio time! Yeah! I'm so glad I'm done Christmas shopping (save a grab bag gift and one person left to get for both of which I'll get Monday at lunch). I'm actually enjoying the holiday more this year than last. I think a lot of it is because I'm not stressed about it. Shopping late sucks.
We're almost out of ham (finally!). I've been grazing through the rest of the party leftovers. We have mad bags of chips and stuff but at least they're not open.
I'm so going on a diet and starting to work out again after the holidays. I feel icky and uncomfortable. A little toning and weight loss usually helps that.
I better get going - I have a spot at the tanning place for 4. It's funny to me how many years I suffered through the winter depression and it's so easy to get a handle on.
Things I am Grateful For
Artificial sunlight
Crispy M&Ms
My Mp3 player
Our bathtub
Having enough
Things I Want Today
A chaise to read and eat grapes on while reclining
A good reading light
to watch the Muppet movies on TV or DVD tomorrow
