The Year in Review

[guywithmonsters]

What to say about 2003? A lot happened and I think this is one of those "corner turning" years.

• I spent 5 months living in Seattle on the biggest project I've ever been involved with. The experience taught me a lot about myself, what I really value and the strength of my relationship with Mr Bear.
  
  
• Darla came to live with me. I love her in that weird way you can only love a dog. We call her the "Snout of Love" because she rarely gives kisses but will give you here snout when she's happy.
  
  
• I moved in with Mr Bear. I've never lived with anyone before. It's been a few months and I'm still adjusting but I love living with him. I know maybe 4 people down here, but I'm going to try and make more friends. I'm also trying to settle into the house and make it a home for both of us.
  
  
• I have a studio now, in the basement. It's very cold in there lately but I am grateful for the space and Mr Bear's encouragement to do artwork. His belief in me has really helped me get passed the fear of failing and to just create.
  
  
• My relationship to my family has changed. The dynamic is different, mostly better. They love Mr Bear and I am grateful for the ease that gives my life.
  
  
• Some of my friends grew apart from me or I from them. It hurt some but I understand it's healthy. I'm learning what makes someone a friend versus a good friend versus a friend for life. I'm trying to learn how to let people grow, even if it means we're growing apart.
  
  
• I lost Weezer this year. It's till hard. I miss the little guy a lot. I think Gypsy does too. I'm trying to learn I can't save everyone - animals or people. I'm trying to accept that in the end, we all have to take care of ourselves. He had a good life and I am grateful he shared part of it with me. I'm not so good at letting go.

This was the year that a lot of the things I had hoped for came to pass. I went places I dreamed of going to , saw and experienced wonderful things and grew a lot. The world can be a cruel and ugly place but it can be sweet and beautiful. I'm trying to keep the later in mind.

I guess that's my first resolution, to stay positive. More to come.